by Jaea Conde
I am shattered, broken to tiny pieces
No one around to help me pick up
The shattered, broken pieces of my heart
I ran to escape the dark, cold past
Running without direction
I reached the crossroads
And I got more confused
Where to go, I do not know
I looked left, “What’s in there?” I asked myself
I looked right, “Is it safe?” I wondered
I looked front, “What will happen to me?” I asked again
I looked back, the darkness overwhelmed
Then I fell down to my knees
Weeping and mourning
Losing grip of the hope left
Then I heard a voice saying, “My child, I Am here”
I looked left, no one was there
I looked right, it was empty
I looked front, there was nothing
I looked back, still darkness exists
Scared, weary and confused
I looked up and a light came down
Covering me, chasing away the darkness behind
And the voice said, “I Am with you wherever you go”
He said, “I Am your Father, I will never leave you”
Then I knew, I am not alone
I was never alone
He has been with me, I just didn’t look
The Light showed the way
He took my cares away
In the crossroads of life
Jesus is here within me
Date: July 04, 2010 (around 2:30am)
Friday, July 30, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
YOU ARE
The first "poem" I wrote in 7 years...It does not really have any rhymes nor does it follow the format of writing poems...Will try to edit it some time, but as of now, I'll leave it as it is...I hope this will not be the last, but is the start of a new beginning...:)
"YOU ARE" by Jaea Conde
In my pain, You are my comfort
In my sadness, You are my joy
In my distress, You are my helper
You are my God, forever there
In anger, You are my patience
In the storm, You are my rock
In times of need, You are my provider
You are my ever loving Father
When there is war, You are my peace
When I am weak, You are my strength
When in a battle, You are my shield
When I am broken, You are my healer
You are my present Redeemer
When I am lost, You are my guide
When in the darkness, You are my light
When trapped in sin, You are my savior
When things go wrong, You are my solution
You are my unfailing Friend
Lord, YOU are
My God, my Father, my Redeemer, and my Friend
Date: June 28, 2010 (2:30am)
"YOU ARE" by Jaea Conde
In my pain, You are my comfort
In my sadness, You are my joy
In my distress, You are my helper
You are my God, forever there
In anger, You are my patience
In the storm, You are my rock
In times of need, You are my provider
You are my ever loving Father
When there is war, You are my peace
When I am weak, You are my strength
When in a battle, You are my shield
When I am broken, You are my healer
You are my present Redeemer
When I am lost, You are my guide
When in the darkness, You are my light
When trapped in sin, You are my savior
When things go wrong, You are my solution
You are my unfailing Friend
Lord, YOU are
My God, my Father, my Redeemer, and my Friend
Date: June 28, 2010 (2:30am)
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Church Musicians
I was browsing through my Friendster profile when I came across this comment of mine...I posted it April 22, 2008 in my comment box and my friends' comment boxes...I would also like to share this to all of you...:)
"In heaven, no earthly occupations will be needed, save one: church musicians. Think about it. In heaven, doctors will have no clinics, for there will be only perfectly functioning and re-energized bodies. Lawyers and judges will have no reason to appear in court to settle disputes among who are living together in peace. Even preachers will no longer need pulpits to win souls, for Christ will be living in the neighborhood, and we shall see Christ, and Christ shall be all in all!"
This is right. For church musicians, earthly service comes with an implied eternal contract. Given such a momentous task, church musicians ought to learn to worship well and to lead worship well, for our worship here is a WARM-UP FOR THE EVERLASTING WORSHIP OF GOD that is to come.
Reference: Serving in Your Church Music Ministry - Randall D. Engle; Pau
"In heaven, no earthly occupations will be needed, save one: church musicians. Think about it. In heaven, doctors will have no clinics, for there will be only perfectly functioning and re-energized bodies. Lawyers and judges will have no reason to appear in court to settle disputes among who are living together in peace. Even preachers will no longer need pulpits to win souls, for Christ will be living in the neighborhood, and we shall see Christ, and Christ shall be all in all!"
This is right. For church musicians, earthly service comes with an implied eternal contract. Given such a momentous task, church musicians ought to learn to worship well and to lead worship well, for our worship here is a WARM-UP FOR THE EVERLASTING WORSHIP OF GOD that is to come.
Reference: Serving in Your Church Music Ministry - Randall D. Engle; Pau
Thursday, April 22, 2010
BACK in HANOI :)
April 22, 2010 (Wednesday) around 8:45am, Air Asia Aircraft Flight FD 3700 bound for Hanoi from Suvarnabhumi International Airport, Bangkok, Thaliand landed at Noi Bai Airport, Hanoi, Vietnam.
After all I went through, I finally got to Hanoi safe and sound...:) The most hard and challenging part of my trip was in the Philippine Immigration...This lady immigration officer was so hard on me, and on some other passengers who were also bound for Bangkok...She really gave me a hard time and scared me a lot...That was the very first time I experienced interogated by an immig officer...(it was not my first time to go to Bangkok and Hanoi though)...She was asking a lot of questions, most of it retorical and sarcastic...I was so nervous, I texted my church pastors and friends to pray for me out of desperation...And deep inside, I was praying really really hard for God's intervention and favor...Finally, she had me interviewed by their head...And it turned out that their head officer was more kind and approachable...(thank GOD!!) The "interview" with the head officer was not scary and hard at all...It barely lasted 10 minutes...After the head officer asked few questions, he asked another immig officer to clear me...When I was cleared and was heading to the boarding gate, I bursted out to tears and was crying all the way...Thank God Mommy Jeaneth called to check out on me...I was able to let my feelings out while talking to her...It really helped a lot...And she said it was good that I was able to undergo such experience, so that next time, I will not be scared that much...She asked me what time was that when I was interogated by the lady immig officer...And it turned out that it was at that the same moment that GOD impressed on them and urged them to pray for me...Indeed, even though we're far from each other, GOD moved and connected us together through prayer...That was why Mommy Jeaneth called to check on me, because God told her that something was happening to me and I need comfort and help...The whole trip was really okay and nice and thank GOD time flew so fast...:)
I am very much enjoying here in Hanoi with my family..We went out, ate at some places, went to praying meeting, and Mommy Jeaneth bought me a cute dress (for sunday)...It is really peaceful in here...:) hehehe :) THANK GOD FOR THE SAFE TRIP!! GOD WAS WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY!! :)
After all I went through, I finally got to Hanoi safe and sound...:) The most hard and challenging part of my trip was in the Philippine Immigration...This lady immigration officer was so hard on me, and on some other passengers who were also bound for Bangkok...She really gave me a hard time and scared me a lot...That was the very first time I experienced interogated by an immig officer...(it was not my first time to go to Bangkok and Hanoi though)...She was asking a lot of questions, most of it retorical and sarcastic...I was so nervous, I texted my church pastors and friends to pray for me out of desperation...And deep inside, I was praying really really hard for God's intervention and favor...Finally, she had me interviewed by their head...And it turned out that their head officer was more kind and approachable...(thank GOD!!) The "interview" with the head officer was not scary and hard at all...It barely lasted 10 minutes...After the head officer asked few questions, he asked another immig officer to clear me...When I was cleared and was heading to the boarding gate, I bursted out to tears and was crying all the way...Thank God Mommy Jeaneth called to check out on me...I was able to let my feelings out while talking to her...It really helped a lot...And she said it was good that I was able to undergo such experience, so that next time, I will not be scared that much...She asked me what time was that when I was interogated by the lady immig officer...And it turned out that it was at that the same moment that GOD impressed on them and urged them to pray for me...Indeed, even though we're far from each other, GOD moved and connected us together through prayer...That was why Mommy Jeaneth called to check on me, because God told her that something was happening to me and I need comfort and help...The whole trip was really okay and nice and thank GOD time flew so fast...:)
I am very much enjoying here in Hanoi with my family..We went out, ate at some places, went to praying meeting, and Mommy Jeaneth bought me a cute dress (for sunday)...It is really peaceful in here...:) hehehe :) THANK GOD FOR THE SAFE TRIP!! GOD WAS WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY!! :)
Monday, April 19, 2010
Plane and Friend :)
April 19, 2010: Trip from Cagayan de Oro City to Manila
Plane: Cebu Pacific - Flight 5J 390
Seat: 7F (Window Side)
Departure: 6:20pm
Arrival: 7:45pm
This day was both fun and not fun...
Not fun, because I'm leaving CdeO...My sisterlet cried and many people that i know felt sad...We'll surely miss each other a lot...But hey!! I always tell them we'll still see each other on the net (Facebook, YM! & Skype for example)...:) I'm in Manila now and I will be leaving for Bangkok tomorrow night...:)
It is still fun because I was able to meet new people and won a new friend...The Alaska Basketball Team was in the same plane as I am...We boarded the plane at around 5:50pm and took off at around 6:15pm...What made it more better? :) My "seatmate" was one of the Alaska players, and we became friends...We talked all throughout the flight...We talked about all sort of random things, from traveling to christian faith...:) This day, I saw most, if not all, of the Alaska Team Players, including their coach and former player of Alaska team, Jojo Lastimosa...Indeed, it may be once in a lifetime experience for me...However, I did not took pictures or asked my new friend to have picture with me and with his team mates...I was shy, and I don't really have a camera, only cellphone camera...:) But still, that experience was for me to keep...And what's nice was he said something that made me think twice of how is my relationship with GOD...
One lesson from that conversation: Back sliding is really not good (who says it is?)...It changes our relationship with God and going back to Him will be very very hard, as compared to the first time we came to Him...In addition, we became more responsible and accountable of our actions, especially when we are aware that what we are doing and what we are about to do is wrong and unpleasing before God...In the Bible, Jesus said that not all who call Him "Father" or "Lord" is His child, and He does not know such people...Why? Because not all who call Him "Father" and "Lord" follow and obey His ways and command...As a child of God, we must follow His example and obey His commands...
One lesson from that experience: Everything is possible with God...I was really feeling a bit sad leaving CdeO, but God has started showing that where I'm going is somewhere helpful and fruitful for me and for the people around me...Overall, the check-in and the flight was really more than okay and enough for me...Indeed, I am never alone wherever I go...GOD IS WITH ME & IN ME!! :)
Plane: Cebu Pacific - Flight 5J 390
Seat: 7F (Window Side)
Departure: 6:20pm
Arrival: 7:45pm
This day was both fun and not fun...
Not fun, because I'm leaving CdeO...My sisterlet cried and many people that i know felt sad...We'll surely miss each other a lot...But hey!! I always tell them we'll still see each other on the net (Facebook, YM! & Skype for example)...:) I'm in Manila now and I will be leaving for Bangkok tomorrow night...:)
It is still fun because I was able to meet new people and won a new friend...The Alaska Basketball Team was in the same plane as I am...We boarded the plane at around 5:50pm and took off at around 6:15pm...What made it more better? :) My "seatmate" was one of the Alaska players, and we became friends...We talked all throughout the flight...We talked about all sort of random things, from traveling to christian faith...:) This day, I saw most, if not all, of the Alaska Team Players, including their coach and former player of Alaska team, Jojo Lastimosa...Indeed, it may be once in a lifetime experience for me...However, I did not took pictures or asked my new friend to have picture with me and with his team mates...I was shy, and I don't really have a camera, only cellphone camera...:) But still, that experience was for me to keep...And what's nice was he said something that made me think twice of how is my relationship with GOD...
One lesson from that conversation: Back sliding is really not good (who says it is?)...It changes our relationship with God and going back to Him will be very very hard, as compared to the first time we came to Him...In addition, we became more responsible and accountable of our actions, especially when we are aware that what we are doing and what we are about to do is wrong and unpleasing before God...In the Bible, Jesus said that not all who call Him "Father" or "Lord" is His child, and He does not know such people...Why? Because not all who call Him "Father" and "Lord" follow and obey His ways and command...As a child of God, we must follow His example and obey His commands...
One lesson from that experience: Everything is possible with God...I was really feeling a bit sad leaving CdeO, but God has started showing that where I'm going is somewhere helpful and fruitful for me and for the people around me...Overall, the check-in and the flight was really more than okay and enough for me...Indeed, I am never alone wherever I go...GOD IS WITH ME & IN ME!! :)
Friday, April 16, 2010
The Graduate :)
March 27, 2010 - one of the most memorable and fulfilling days on my life...that was when my life as a student ended and i was sealed with my degree in Bachelor of Science in Psychology...I AM NOW A GRADUATE!! :D and now currently an unemployed graduate...hehehe :D being a graduate has a lot of perks: no more assignments, projects, school reports, thesis paper, but also no more ALLOWANCE...hehehe :D most of my classmates are now looking and applying for jobs...and i am so excited to try applying for different jobs, but i guess that has to wait...:) i already have plans for the moment, with the help of my aunt...:) i will have a sort of vacation for a while then will see what GOD will impress on me on which work i should apply for...there are a lot of opportunities waiting for me (THANK GOD!) and soon i will start choosing which door to open....i just hope GOD will lead me to open the right door...
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