when God takes you home...

our life here on earth is never permanent...we're just hear to live temporarily...our life have been all planned even before we were born...God planned the date of our birth and the date when we leave this place...everything is planned and it works according to God's own will...God placed us in a family where we fit best...In a community where we can be a good neighbor to our neighbors...In a city where we can serve Him and spread out His word to His people...In a country where we can be the one to lead His people in a righteous way...Everything was planned by God according to His own purpose and will...He even brought us close to each other to make us an outlet of His love to one another...He let us borrow each other's presence, company, care and love...And it pays to always remember that someday, sometime, God will take us back home to His presence...As what we are always told, we are just visitors here on earth...Our permanent home is in heaven, where there is peace, joy, and love from God...A place where we can praise and worship Him for eternity...

Just tonight (July 11, 2009), i went to the hospital (CUMC) to visit a friend of mine...He was in a critical condition for days...And they said that his condition became even worse because they found another (worst) complication in him...When i was in the hospital, with some other people who are my friends (more than friends cause we're like a "family", church family), he was in bed lying with a respirator...i stayed there chit-chatting with my church family, telling them stories about my cousins in Vietnam...We had fun talking with each other...Keeping each other's company and finding comfort from each other during this time of suffering and life struggle of our dear friend...His family was there..They stayed with him since the first day he got sick...He was prayed over and friends who knew him kept on praying for him...Asking for healing, provision, comfort, and the will of God...And just also tonight, God took him home with Him...It brings pain to us because his presence and company we will not see anymore until God takes home all His children with Him too...We know God loves him very much and He has plans for him and his family...As He said in His words, "For I know the plans I have for you...Plans to prosper you and not to harm you...Plans to give you hope and a future..." Also He said, "Everything works together for good to those who love the Lord.." In this time, God is our only source of comfort...

Kuya, thanks for being a good kuya and friend to all of us...sayang wala jud ko nimo natudluan og keybroad...sige lang jud ka-postpone atong plans and schedules...tsk!! hehehe :) kuya, i feel bad kay nag-una ka uli, but i'm also happy because you found peace and joy there sa presence ni Lord...how does heaven looks like? hihihi :D i guess we'll see each other in God's time...:D Lord, thanks sa life a gihatag Nimo kay kuya...he was indeed a blessing to us, his family and friends...Whatever plans You have for their family, Lord, let Your will be done...I pray for comfort to everyone who feel pain at his leaving...Lord, be with us always...In this time of pain, Lord, we continue to praise You and give glory to You alone...thank You so much Lord...:D

(I wrote this blog to express out the words i have in my heart and mind to bring comfort to me and to everyone who might find comfort through this...I pray for God's covering...)

when GOD is at your side...

just this afternoon i've got a stomach problem (that means, i did not do duty at the office)...last saturday night i've got terrible headache...weeks and days prior to that i've got colds, cough, and even high fever...these past weeks i've been having different illness and sickness, which made (and MAKES) me get tired easily...it's no good going to school and work when sick...i can barely concentrate on listening to our teachers and lessons...i feel tired every morning when getting up from bed...i sometimes get to my first class late...i often feel so drowsy during class and at work...what i don't really like is that the sickness comes one after the other...first, i've got headache, then colds, then high fever, then back to colds, then cough, then headache, then stomach ache, etc...sometimes it goes in a circular pattern...because of our classes and work, and things to do, i've learned to drink meds now...i really don't like drinking medicines, especially those that tastes bad and AWFUL! but because it will help me get better, i've taught and told myself to drink meds, even if it really tastes awful...but the best help i ever got was from GOD...you know why? it is because when i'm sick i can't do my work well, whether in class or in the office...with prayer and GOD's help, i was able to do well even when sick...and listening to worship songs also helped a lot...it helped me remember that GOD is on my side...the songs i liked most were from Don Moen...GOD WILL MAKE A WAY and I AM THE GOD THAT HEALETH THEE...it's been for years since i've last heard those songs sang in worship service...and i miss that kind of songs...

when GOD is at your side there is healing, provision, comfort, love, and HE CAN CERTAINLY MAKE A WAY EVEN WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY...
i am just so amazed with how GOD works in the lives of HIS children... :)

from the office to the laboratory: the Student Assistant

my duty at the operator's office is done...now, i'm at the internet lab...i'll be here from 5pm to 7pm...

during mondays, thursdays and fridays, i'll work at the office from 12nn-5pm, then at the internet laboratories (STC/SS) from 5pm-7pm...while during tuesdays, i'll have class from 5:30pm to 8:30pm after my 12nn-5pm duty work...during wednesdays, my SA duty is from 12nn to 3pm, and will have a thesis class from 4pm-5pm...5pm is the activity hour in our school during wednesdays...so, i'll be at the peer facilitator's office or at the XUPS office for any org activity...EVERY MORNING I HAVE A CLASS TO GO AND ATTEND TO...:p

the taks are not really hard for both my SA office assignment...at the office, i just have to answer calls and forward them to the offices the people wants to call to...at the lab, i just have to wait for students to come in and out, and of course make sure that everything is in order inside the laboratory during my shift...

disadvantage: sometimes it can be very stressing especially if i have homeworks/assignments and studying to do...i need to split my attention between doing my job as a Student Assistant (employee) and as a student (graduating student)...

advantage: free internet usage during my duty hours!!! :p even when i'm at the operator's office, my supervisor would allow me to use her computer so that i won't get bored while waiting for incoming calls...also, being a Student Assistant means i'll have a bit of work experience...and this is a better way to spend my free time...i will have training also...hihihihi :p

God really open doors that will help us become a productive child of HIS...i know GOD has a plan for me why He let me be into these offices...and i give Him all the glory because He indeed has given me His favor...(that's another story to tell) hihihi :p

at 20 :p

i just turned 20 last May...i am over and out from my teen years and am now entering my twenties...i didn't like increasing and adding another year/number on my age...i like being young...i'm not yet old, i know, but i feel i'm more closer to it than ever...maybe it is because i got more and more aware and conscious of the responsibilities that comes with age and maturity...i feel like i am more tied up than ever...i get anxious most of the time of what will happen to me next...i am still in school now but i get anxious all the time if i'll have work or not when i graduate...i get worried of what will happen to me for the next days, weeks, months, and years...

the day before i turned 20, i was really complaining about it to my friend...i gave a big deal about it...and i felt sad...but now, i don't feel the same anymore...i guess it was my thoughts that brought the negative energy to me before i turned 20...being 20 didn't stop from bringing out the child in me...i am still free to do the childish things i always liked and wanted to do...i see that age doesn't really matter when you're young at heart...i guess no matter how old i'll get, if i still love to do what i love to do now, then i guess nothing will stop me from doing it...i like to make "manya" to anyone i can make "manya" with...it helps me feel better and happy all the time...even when talking to God...:)

what i like most about being young is being free and just be FREE... no worries, no tie ups..i don't have to worry about anything, because what comes will just pass by...kids don't worry about anything...and they trust mostly everything...also, i still feel like i'm still a "baby" in the sight of God...why? because there are still a lot of things i need to learn and see to help me grow mature spiritually...

what's amazing about growing old in age? it indicates your level of maturity and your years of experience...for me, i realized that the more i grow older, in age, the more it reminds me of the number of years that GOD has been with me, showering me with love and abundant blessings...i am 20 now...and it tells me that i have lived a beautiful and sweet life for 20 years...i may not be perfect, but GOD's love is perfect and it's more than enough for me...what else can i ask for when God is already there?? :D isn't it amazing how simple things can tell us of how mighty our God is??? :D

sLeePy most of the time

these recent days, i have spent most of my time inside school campus...whether in class or in extra/co-curricular groups, i'd spent at least 10 hours inside the campus...this shouldn't be so surprising as i have committed myself to participate in certain activities and groups in the campus...also, i have applied as a student assistant and i spend half of my day working in the office or internet lab...my classes are not so hard (yet) and i've only got 15units, or 5 subjects, including Thesis, for this semester...i have no problems with my classes, work, and SV works (yet) but i am feeling tired and sleepy most of the time...when in class, i'd feel sleepy and doze off around (more or less) 20mins. prior to the start of class...i wonder if i'm depressed, or i just lack rest and sleep, or i just really find the class BORING?? i usually sleep at around 1:00am (or so) every night...and have to wake up at around 7:00am in the morning every day...then head to school for classes, after classes, eat EARLY lunch, then proceed to the office to work for at least 5 (or 7) hours, reading notes in between to study for quizzes...after work, sometimes i'd still have classes (especially during Tuesdays; i have a class (major) that starts at 5:30pm and ends at 8:30pm)...after everything, i still want to stay and hang around with my friends before heading home...when i get home, i'd watch TV and chit-chat with everyone in the house (grandma, uncles, cousin, and sisters, occasionally with mom)...after watching TV, i'd stay in my room with my sisterlet and we'll chat more and laugh and play together....and before actually going to sleep, i'd do texting 'til i fall asleep...i sleep between 1:00am (that's the EARLIEST) or 3:00am...

hmmm...i hope i can change my sleeping patterns...or maybe, i hope i'd be more interested in our classes...cause i can also notice that when my classmates also find our classes boring , they will also feel so sleepy and would also doze off sometimes....well, i guess either way, i'll be able to cope up with this...and i hope soon...i'm praying and asking for God's help, of course... :)

the SchoLar :)

during my first year in college i was a scholar of my university but i didn't see the real worth and value of it 'til now...i somehow regretted that i didn't use well the blessing(s) God had given me so that i can pursue and finish my studies...during that time all i can think of was having fun and not really "grade-grab" to maintain high grades required for my scholarship...i thought that i can really finish my studies even though we have to pay the full tuition...that time i was like, "what difference would it make? maintaining grades is no fun and is very stressful..." i admit, i was rebellious that time and i hold grudge against some people...and so, when i got the opportunity, i asked the scholarship office to cancel my scholarship since my QPI didn't reach the requirement...my father told me that somehow it can still be fixed and arranged and i can still keep my scholarship...but i told him, "No. i don't want it anymore. it's tiring and stressing." also, what i had in mind that time was i am afraid to loose my scholarship because of failing marks...it is because i have to take 2 of the subjects that i don't really, really don't like, biology and mathematics...it's really not THAT hard...i just find the subjects, and teachers, boring...also, it is no fun when you go to a class having no friends and not knowing your classmates...that is one thing i don't like about being in college...in one year, you have to be in at least 10 different classes, and have all different classmates...you have to "adjust" every semester, especially when the teachers will say that we have to be in a group for the whole semester...tsk! my first 2 years in college was really not that fun at all...i had friends, but during the second semester on my first year, we got separated for grade reasons...so, during my first year (and second year), i spent most of my time in malls and my "friend's" place...i walked at school alone and not having anyone to talk to...one factor why i don't want to maintain high grades...(now, i don't blame anyone anymore , who, somehow i see as the people who influenced (or became a factor) and somehow pushed me to decide and choose not to pursue my scholarship anymore...it was my decision and those people didn't know that they have "inflicted" or caused pain to me that time...)

going back to my scholarship...i have now see the worth and value of my scholarship...just last year (before 1st semester ended), i met someone who is also a scholar in the same university and is also a student assistant...he said that he need to get a scholarship so that he can continue and finish his studies in this university...they had financial problems when he graduated at high school and his parents told him that they can't send him to this university because it is expensive...so, he has to go to a college school that is somehow less expensive, or cheaper...but he didn't want to go to that school because he liked this university better...(our school is one of the prestigous schools in our city... :p) to cut the story short, he was able to enroll in this university and got a scholarship...since 1st year he was a scholar and was able to maintain the grades required...also, to have more financial aid, he applied to be a Student Assistant in our university...until now he is a scholar and a Student Assistant...(he's the one who recommended me to their office and boss so that i can also apply for Student Assistant....) his experience made me think that i was very blessed by God because i need not to ask the scholarship from the university because it was a chain belssing from God when i graduated at high school...He gave me that award so that i can have a scholarship to help me finish my studies because He knew that our family will face financial problems that might stop me from going to school...i didn't see that 'til now...now, i know i could've done better than what i did before...i know that i can maintain those grades while having fun at school...the problem was with me...i didn't bother to look beyond what i saw that time...i didn't think of "the more important things"...

amazingly, God didn't stop there...He didn't stop to provide for me...He opened other doors and opportunity to help me continue and finish my studies...although i stopped going to school for 1 school year, i didn't feel sorry for it...because it was all God's plan for me to help me patch up the mistakes i did during my first 2 years in college...when i went back to school last year, He arranged everything for me...my friends, my relationship with my family, my relationship with Him and my personality and mind set...now, i can still continue to taste the sweet life that God has given me and has laid down for me...He never stopped and would never stop providing for and being a perfect Father to His children...now, i am a graduating student and i know God is with me everyday wherever i go...despite of all the problems and trials i have right now and will still have to face, God's eyes and hands are on me..He will never leave me, nor forsake me...just as He promised...

MY FIRST BLOG POST @ Blogger.com

ellow fellow bloggers! :p

(this is my first time to post a blog here in blogger.com... :p)

i am a 20 year old lady who decided to do some blogging since i'd be spending at least 2 hours in an internet laboratory for at least 1 semester...now, i am ready to share to all of you the "Sweet Life" that God has given me...may my blog site be an outlet to share God's amazingness and unfathomable compassion and love for His people...may it bring encouragement to you, readers and may you see the light and hands of God that works in the lives of His people in and through ways we may see as impossible and undoable...

God bless! :p