during my first year in college i was a scholar of my university but i didn't see the real worth and value of it 'til now...i somehow regretted that i didn't use well the blessing(s) God had given me so that i can pursue and finish my studies...during that time all i can think of was having fun and not really "grade-grab" to maintain high grades required for my scholarship...i thought that i can really finish my studies even though we have to pay the full tuition...that time i was like, "what difference would it make? maintaining grades is no fun and is very stressful..." i admit, i was rebellious that time and i hold grudge against some people...and so, when i got the opportunity, i asked the scholarship office to cancel my scholarship since my QPI didn't reach the requirement...my father told me that somehow it can still be fixed and arranged and i can still keep my scholarship...but i told him, "No. i don't want it anymore. it's tiring and stressing." also, what i had in mind that time was i am afraid to loose my scholarship because of failing marks...it is because i have to take 2 of the subjects that i don't really, really don't like, biology and mathematics...it's really not THAT hard...i just find the subjects, and teachers, boring...also, it is no fun when you go to a class having no friends and not knowing your classmates...that is one thing i don't like about being in college...in one year, you have to be in at least 10 different classes, and have all different classmates...you have to "adjust" every semester, especially when the teachers will say that we have to be in a group for the whole semester...tsk! my first 2 years in college was really not that fun at all...i had friends, but during the second semester on my first year, we got separated for grade reasons...so, during my first year (and second year), i spent most of my time in malls and my "friend's" place...i walked at school alone and not having anyone to talk to...one factor why i don't want to maintain high grades...(now, i don't blame anyone anymore , who, somehow i see as the people who influenced (or became a factor) and somehow pushed me to decide and choose not to pursue my scholarship anymore...it was my decision and those people didn't know that they have "inflicted" or caused pain to me that time...)
going back to my scholarship...i have now see the worth and value of my scholarship...just last year (before 1st semester ended), i met someone who is also a scholar in the same university and is also a student assistant...he said that he need to get a scholarship so that he can continue and finish his studies in this university...they had financial problems when he graduated at high school and his parents told him that they can't send him to this university because it is expensive...so, he has to go to a college school that is somehow less expensive, or cheaper...but he didn't want to go to that school because he liked this university better...(our school is one of the prestigous schools in our city... :p) to cut the story short, he was able to enroll in this university and got a scholarship...since 1st year he was a scholar and was able to maintain the grades required...also, to have more financial aid, he applied to be a Student Assistant in our university...until now he is a scholar and a Student Assistant...(he's the one who recommended me to their office and boss so that i can also apply for Student Assistant....) his experience made me think that i was very blessed by God because i need not to ask the scholarship from the university because it was a chain belssing from God when i graduated at high school...He gave me that award so that i can have a scholarship to help me finish my studies because He knew that our family will face financial problems that might stop me from going to school...i didn't see that 'til now...now, i know i could've done better than what i did before...i know that i can maintain those grades while having fun at school...the problem was with me...i didn't bother to look beyond what i saw that time...i didn't think of "the more important things"...
amazingly, God didn't stop there...He didn't stop to provide for me...He opened other doors and opportunity to help me continue and finish my studies...although i stopped going to school for 1 school year, i didn't feel sorry for it...because it was all God's plan for me to help me patch up the mistakes i did during my first 2 years in college...when i went back to school last year, He arranged everything for me...my friends, my relationship with my family, my relationship with Him and my personality and mind set...now, i can still continue to taste the sweet life that God has given me and has laid down for me...He never stopped and would never stop providing for and being a perfect Father to His children...now, i am a graduating student and i know God is with me everyday wherever i go...despite of all the problems and trials i have right now and will still have to face, God's eyes and hands are on me..He will never leave me, nor forsake me...just as He promised...
going back to my scholarship...i have now see the worth and value of my scholarship...just last year (before 1st semester ended), i met someone who is also a scholar in the same university and is also a student assistant...he said that he need to get a scholarship so that he can continue and finish his studies in this university...they had financial problems when he graduated at high school and his parents told him that they can't send him to this university because it is expensive...so, he has to go to a college school that is somehow less expensive, or cheaper...but he didn't want to go to that school because he liked this university better...(our school is one of the prestigous schools in our city... :p) to cut the story short, he was able to enroll in this university and got a scholarship...since 1st year he was a scholar and was able to maintain the grades required...also, to have more financial aid, he applied to be a Student Assistant in our university...until now he is a scholar and a Student Assistant...(he's the one who recommended me to their office and boss so that i can also apply for Student Assistant....) his experience made me think that i was very blessed by God because i need not to ask the scholarship from the university because it was a chain belssing from God when i graduated at high school...He gave me that award so that i can have a scholarship to help me finish my studies because He knew that our family will face financial problems that might stop me from going to school...i didn't see that 'til now...now, i know i could've done better than what i did before...i know that i can maintain those grades while having fun at school...the problem was with me...i didn't bother to look beyond what i saw that time...i didn't think of "the more important things"...
amazingly, God didn't stop there...He didn't stop to provide for me...He opened other doors and opportunity to help me continue and finish my studies...although i stopped going to school for 1 school year, i didn't feel sorry for it...because it was all God's plan for me to help me patch up the mistakes i did during my first 2 years in college...when i went back to school last year, He arranged everything for me...my friends, my relationship with my family, my relationship with Him and my personality and mind set...now, i can still continue to taste the sweet life that God has given me and has laid down for me...He never stopped and would never stop providing for and being a perfect Father to His children...now, i am a graduating student and i know God is with me everyday wherever i go...despite of all the problems and trials i have right now and will still have to face, God's eyes and hands are on me..He will never leave me, nor forsake me...just as He promised...
